The pain of my Uncle Eddie death devastated everyone. I was in so much pain, I thought I was going mad. My whole family experienced the same feelings. My mother's only brother was on his way to heaven, the next life. Now we had to face Life without Eddie Lewis, wow this took some adjusting to do and some patience to achieve. Everyone was in so much pain about this... what was I going to do? I was back in a state of depression.
We were very close, me and my Uncle Eddie. He was my best friend at that time. Let me tell you, we smoked a lot of dope, more than ever, and still hung around with guys who were on the wrong side of the law. One night, a few That was cool, they weren't threatening but were doing bad things. Maybe not as bad as what I had done in the past, but weeks after Uncle Eddie's death, I was at a friend's house when two of these guys came around - I knew them through friends. That was cool, they weren't threatening but were doing bad things.Maybe not as bad as some of the things I had done in the past, but they had bad habits.Does crack cocaine come to your mind?
Yes, they liked crack cocaine and wanted to have sessions at my mate;s house to say thankyou for the space. What did I do? I had tried cocaine before but not crack cocaine, so like a jerk, back to the darkness I went. I tried crack cocaine for the first time.It was easy to escape the pain of my uncle's death with my mate. , I am sure you are following the story guys. The same patterns were emerging, I needed to get away from my uncles Death, it was too painful so crack cocaine would solve the problem or would it?
Me and my mate had our first pipe- this was absolutely amazing but straightaway I realised the dangers of taking this drug. I told myself I would be alright as long as I wasn't putting needles in my arms.Is that right, frankie? A new Drug but on a different level, this time instead of injecting, I was now smoking Crack Cocaine In a Pipe. This drug is supposed to be the most Dangerous Psychological Drug on the Planet.
What's going on Frankie? Deja-Vu, don't you learn anything? Now I am doing the most weirdest things every time I have Crack Cocaine, The craving for this drug was ridiculous. I remember me and my friends used to walk to Moss Side to get this drug day in day out. When our friends came around, what did they do? Crack Cocaine! I remember one night a fight nearly broke out because a friend knocked a guy's Cocaine line all over the floor. This was daft Frankie, the internal dialogue was ' calm down, calm down - I don't think so, the buzz is too good- I can handle it, oh yes' - I could not. People always say they can handle something until it's too late.Spending nights arguing and falling out over - Drugs isn't a nice thing to do but this was my life now. Everything was intense when it came to Drugs. Drugs at work as a post office clerk, where I felt relaxed in a stressful job. Drugs at Dinner, Drugs in the Evening out in the pubs and clubs. Drugs, Drugs Drugs, Drugs Glorious Drugs. Psychologically I was a mess in the morning,afternoon and evening. There was no escaping it.
This lasted for about a year and messed my head up completely. I became very tired of taking Crack Cocaine. At midnight on New Year's Eve in 1996, I was on my way to moss side with a friend to score a hit of crack cocaine - we were planning to celebrate the New Year with a bang.That night something said to me, frankie, stop taking this drug! Uncle Eddie would certainly not be proud of you doing this, he's watching over you. ' So my friend and I decided to turn my back towards home and stop this habit. How we did that I don't know, but we did. I certainly stayed away from bad influences but this kept happening to me the same cycles and patterns, but the clue was I am still here fighting to tell you this story.
At this point in my life I needed a complete change of scenery, so I knew had to do some soul- searching to really completely transform my life for the better. What were the first steps? Education.Who needs Education?
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